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| So i decided to become a xanga'er once more, thanks to Reed lol.. now that im back on it though, i realize i have missed it...and it is super funny to see how i used to be i must say. I am now a freshman in college, compared to a freshy in highschool when i started this.. thats just crazy.. i guess ill start with updates in my life... umm..well yes, im a freshman in college. i go to UNI..don't know if i plan to stay here..whatever God wants i suppose. im turning 19 in a month or so. i have an amazing new boy in my life..well not so new, but on here he will be lol..his name is Ryan, hes amazing and its going very well, even with us being like a thousand miles (i could be exaggerating on that) apart...i have no idea what so ever what i am to do with my life..i just know that i very much want to be a mom right now..but apparently you need a steady income to make that work..lol hmm..well i dont know of what else to say. i doubt anyone but Reed will read this anyway haha.. well thats all folks :) (thats what i used to say haha, thats funny) tune in next time. | | |
| Ok kids here it is! drum roll please................................
www.myspace.com/xjessicaxleighx TA DA!!
check it out and be my friend 
Farewell
<3Jessie | | |
| dear Xanga,
I'm sorry...but its just not working out. Its not you its me...there's someone else....I hope we can still be friends.
Im goin' to myspace.
<3 | | |
|  hehe Anchorman makes me smile
Smiling..its such a great thing. Sometimes you don't realize you literally brighten someone's day when you smile, seriously thats all it takes. I used to be really good at that, but I kinda lost that "gift" sometime this year. I remember some kid i rarely ever talk to came up to my locker one day and was like " how come you don't smile anymore?" and then just kinda walked away...and then it hit me, me not smiling actually has an effect on everyday people that see me in the halls. And Im supposed to be "advertising" Jesus...umm hows that gonna work if Im walkin around all depressed or pissed off or something? In a way we are kindof walking billboards for Jesus, what we say what we do who we are reflects back on Him. So i decided no matter how crappy things may get, you gotta keep smiling. All things work out to the good for those who believe in Him so I have no reason what so ever to be worrying or upset about anything. I just need to smile and rest in the fact that its in God's hands and everything will be A-Okay.
Ok so i just had a little debate with myself there lol yay for that
well this concludes my update, tune in next week lol. Have a good week you guys!!
<3always, Jess | | |
| Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
-Goodbye My Lover | | |
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